Sarais vs. The World

Honestly the best recourse for sarais at this point is to take a break, explore mapping for pleasure and if at a later date he wants to come back, return under a different name.

I'm not here to cause anyone any problems, nor am I a troll.I like Doom as we all do, and I genuinely thought this thread interesting.No offense was intended and none taken.Bye!

Check this one off the "shit that was inevitable" list. I saw that JOM4 business firsthand and it was so ridiculous. Some people need help yet actively reject it to fulfil some personal vendetta or other.

She shares her no spacing after punctuation habit with you as well it seems haha Good to see you here grandma, no need to be shy. Despite appearances we are really a friendly welcoming bunch of whippersnappers!

Bingo.

Deathevokation, I'm thrilled that you've become much more open about explaining your opinions and your personal life. I've noticed a pretty dramatic change in your demeanor compared to what I thought it was since I've come here. I really think if the community had more people who could speak from personal experience and articulate their thoughts in a manner that wasn't influenced by the situation at hand, such as yourself, we'd all be a lot less stressed out!

My experience in life includes many times where I said some really dumb shit. I spent a lot of years being angry and conflicted while wondering why I was always surrounded by assholes. Somehow I've been coasting through life having a lot of mean, nasty thoughts on my mind without saying them out loud, and I guess somehow it showed in my body language. If I knew everyone's problem had anything to do with how I was conducting myself in front of strangers and that just stepping out of my default "apathetic about everything" mode and into a more thoughtful and caring mode, it would make everyone around me feel more comfortable and open. It would have made everyone around me happier and my own life more enjoyable when I was 16 years old. I'm now 28 and I have a long history of wasted time and fucked a lot of opportunities for healthy fruitful friendships when I had the chance.

I know what I know now and it's really helpful for me at this particular time in my life, but I'm too determined to remain in this community because I love Doom too much! I don't have a shot in the dark convincing my full-time working, time restrained, married with children, adult friends to play Doom. I can't get anyone I know to give even a fraction of a fuck about a dumb old shooter game. That time is gone. Time does eventually escape us. Our lives are finite. When I see someone like Sarais, I see an opportunity to stop someone who's on a path of spending the next 10, 15, 20, 25 years from hating the entire world and himself because everyone their voice reaches treats them like shit. Its not enough for someone to give a little fortune cookie of a post that says "stop being a jerk." I needed a life changing intervention to get out of this kind of funk, and I think everyone else who's going through a similar thing needs it too. I think I dodged 25 years of living in my own prison because I had the mental stability to work on myself. I care about other people who care about Doom like I do. When I give someone who's presence is polluting the tranquility of this entire community an opportunity to have a very clear cut example of how their manner of being is effecting the people around them, I really do feel as though I'm solving a long term problem that is and will continue to effect all of us over the next 5 or more years!

I know I care about Doom, and I know everyone else here does too, that's why we surround ourselves with people who grew up with different life experiences, upbringings, cultures, even when they're hardly compatible with our own. But we care about Doom and we're gonna go where Doomers go to talk about Doom because we have nowhere else to go to do it. If we all want to have a good experience while we're here, we gotta talk about this shit, get through the pain, and work with each other to make our lives a little easier so we can enjoy our lives while we're here.

Wanna turn it back into shitposting insults and one liners? Here lemme help yall get back on track.

OI YOU SUCK, YOU FUC---*ban-sniped for usage of cuss words*

What an amusing moment for me to waste all of my bandwidth and disappear from the internet for 3 days!!! I would've made this thread so much more fun, had I not missed its zenith!

What an big and amusing thread as well! So entertaining to read, hahaha! I was feeling a bit down and this was EXACTLY what I needed! Yay!

This thread's subject was pretty much exhausted after the first... 5 or so posts maybe? SArais's life story, Terminus's R€AŁ EVID€NCE and SArais's further STRONGLY EXPRESSED DISSATISFACTION was pretty much everything to be said about this.

So, umm.

sarais.
Honestly, until the JOM thing broke out, I didn't know much about you. I only would see your occasional DW posts, and my impression of you was that you were cool. As every heterosexual person, I don't spend too much time on 4chan so naturally I didn't know that you were such a messed up guy.

Then the JOM thing broke out. I found your reaction to be a bit "overexaggerated", like accusing everyone of holding the community back with their guidelines and rules and stuff. Reminder, at this point I didn't know about your conspiracies about the entire community haunting you, so I was actually quite taken aback by your QUITE ABRUPT change of tone. I was even too dazzled by it to change my opinion about you.

Some time passed, and you showed up here. I was glad to see you back. I might've voiced my appreciation of your return as well. Maybe not tho. Um, then apparently you started bringing all of your drama from your gay dating site and acting increasingly...... paranoid?? aggressive?? maybe a bit of both??? maybe something else as well???????? My English is not good enough for me to know all those nuanced words to exactly describe your behaviour. Oh wait I know one. Weird. Yeah that fits. You were acting really weird.

And your threads when you annoucnce your departure from this place, like "I SHOULDN'T HAVE COME HERE IN THE FIRST PLACE" and then you came back.... then left.... then came back...... such an eternal cycle. Like Amon-Ra fighting that evil Egyptian snake god dude, hahaha.
I have no idea what were your intentions regarding that... but you came off as an edgy teenager seeking attention. It takes one to know one amirite??? Hahah!

And now this epic thread... which, by the way, is archived on my HD in case of it getting too cancerous (hey oldfags remember when all political threads got purged? Memories!).

Uh, I'm even struggling to form a coherent impression of you, what you are. Yo, I don't even know.

You are definitely very devoted to Doom and all that. Not like me (I've given up gaming in general btw). You take the community extremely seriously, to heart. You sincerely care about making a lasting contribution, driving it forward. Which is good. Honestly, it's really heartening (is that a word?) to see how enthusiastic you are about this.

Buuuuuut... you seem to have serious problems with your inner self. I'll reveal a little secret to you. Nobody, N O B O D Y, on the Internet has any really malicious intentions about you. Nobody wants to ruin your life. Nobody wants to make it a living hell. Nobody has a conspiracy against you.

Such an asshole that Nobody guy, eh???

Yeah, people may not like you for various reasons. They may reject you, or ban you, or insult you. But not really genuinely hate you. I don't think there's a single person in this thread that HATES you. We are all just annoyed, not more than that. Annoyed by how you think we are more than just annoyed. TBH I'd understand if anybody were undertaking any actual measures to harm you... but nobody really does, to my knowledge. You are exaggerating. Your only enemy in this situation is YOU. You. you. you. you. you. Let that sink in. All of the grudges that you hold against some people exist only in the little world you made for yourself.

(I do support you on some matters tho: for instance, that one chatlog Terminus posted with you making some nazi jokes was some really unjustified aggression from everyone towards you. Don't think I'm some sort of hater for attempting to open your eyes hahaha.)

I'm not saying that you should suddenly kneel and beg for forgiveness (that wouldn't be a bad idea though)... but try to be more like the hivemind. We are social animals. Putting yourself alone against everybody is not only a futile struggle, but also kinda pathetic and gay above all. Try to see the good sides of people. Get a life outside the internet. Go to the gym or take up a dancing class or DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR LIFE FOR HOLY JESUS CHRIST'S SAKE.

Don't get yourself too invested into drama on the internet. One day, you'll find that you have enough wisdom to realize that you've spent too much time on that, and not enough time on more important things.

Really, SArais. Don't let it become too late for you. Please.
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You have yet to prove a single goddamned thing you have been ranting about.

Dude, if the internet upsets you so much, log the fuck off.

I've been patient. I actually read most of this garbage trying to understand what the fuck is going on and why anyone on Earth would care. For the life of me I can't come to a conclusion on either front. Darknation seems to have the best synopsis on this...it's like an episode of Mentally Handicapped Survivor. Drop a socially inept, paranoid schizo nut-case onto an internet forum with normal people and watch what happens. Well if you're going to sit there and act like a fucking asshole over shit no one can back up or confirm, we can't stop you. If you're perfectly content letting complete strangers on the internet dictate your thoughts, actions and behavior, more power to you there as well. Meanwhile those of us you tell to 'grow up' (the irony here is unparalleled) will go on with our quite grown-up lives content that none of this matters what-so-ever, while the kid in the corner pretends he's dismantling some giant conspiracy around a stupid old video game. Like every single other person you choose to ignore, I hope one day you develop the emotional maturity to realize that no one on the internet possibly cares that much about you.