Doomerboard Dream Journal

Oh boy this thread. I have quite crazy and colorful dreams, and I kinda keep some of them in my diary of things. Dreams mean a lot to me, apparently. Some of these can rock my very foundation, due to intensity. Picking one of these is tough, but I did so anyways. Note: Translating ain't easy, plus a lot of these are long as novels to explain. So I am picking the easiest to describe.

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DREAM: Sticking it to Lovecraft



This one is kinda epic. I had this one when I was going to high school, I reckon, late part of 3rd year. The context is similar to Trace's post :3


So, there is me, stepping off my school bus, walking and minding my business. Its morning of course, sun shining on my back, as I didn't expect much of a change of today.


Until a purple portal opened in front of me, dragging me inside. My eyes opened, and I was standing on a ledge of some tall spire, as there were tons of other spires around this one. The sky was sickly green and cloudy, and there were green thunders cracking off here and there. Shit was alienesque. I didn't know about Lovecraft then, at least not that much as I do now, so I didn't realize this crap was similar to one of the worlds our boy Lovey-Dovey wrote, or at least one of his followers. I just thought this was superbly unusual, and I knew I had to escape. So I parkoured my way around the spires/towers, until I found the purple portal again, and was escorted to reality with a thunder bang. Of course, I was freaked out. I mean, you don't see this shit every day. I noticed the sickly green clouds on the horizons, although it was still a sunny and clear day. So the feeling of dread started settling in, as I was walking to school again.


Somehow again, almost in the next hour, another purple portal opened, and I was dragged into it, this time, landing on some bizzare coast, in the same realm. I could see the spires in the distance. This time I had to jump boulder from boulder while dodging some space crabs. I think I saw a silhouette on the beach as well, but another purple portal was close, so I did my jumps and jumped into the portal again.


This time, when I got out, I was patted on the back by some dude with a weird haircut. He greeted me:"You also had to travel through the portal right?". I nodded my head in acknowledgement.


"Oh boy, so you are another poor soul like we", and he pointed his thumb to a group of teenagers: "We have some form of a plan, join us, and we might get out of this hell together."

I jumped up, dusted my self, agreed, and started talking with the group.

The group consisted of four boys and three girls, including me. The dude who greeted me was called "Z" as in "Zee", short for "Zoro", which is short for "Tomislav". Funny as fuck, I know. He was the "PR" dude of the group, so to say, he wasn't the leader. The leader was Robert, he was dressed in black, he was tall, mysterious, had long hair and had a hat on his head. He also didn't bother talking much. He didn't impose any sort of authority, he was just dropping fire-hot suggestions and plans, and so the group appointed him the leader.

The next person was Lerri, as in "Larry", and he was the shortest of the boys (I was the second tallest guy), and he had a bush of a hair on his head. He was bit wacky, and his "contribution" to the group was his geographic knowledge. He would be the navigator. Apparently we were going on a trip.


The third dude was Nikola (Nick, Nicholas). Physically strongest, but also kinda like a asshole, always pouting. Apparently he is a male "tsundere".

First girl was Elizabeta (Elizabeth). If anything, she would be the "PR" girl of the group, even if she doesn't know much, but she learns quick.
Game character material.

Second girl was Mika (Michaela), energetic, the "genki" girl. Cheerleader perhaps?
Not a stupid bimbo though, just optimistic.

Third girl was Viktoria, and she was the "moe" girl, so to say. Introverted, shy, all that cute stuff you can pack into a girl :3

And the plan was to grab Z's minivan and travel to the sun. Yeah. Stupid plan. We basically had to drive into the incoming sunset, because the green sickly clouds grew from the horizon, and we thought, that by travelling to the direction of the sun, we would escape the sickly green clouds and by that, escape the portals and by extent, the "tentacles of the bad guy". No other plan than that, but when we looked at it, we didn't have many options, and we could buy some time by going on a roadtrip.

Lerri planned out a trip involving a minivan, then once we run out of land, we would grab a boat and go to Italy, following the sun. All who had ever remotely heard of Cthulhu can imagine why that sounds like a bad idea. But, if we are going to skip school, alright.

So we went to the parking lot, as a portal opened in front of us. We quickly retreated before the energies could suck us in, and we flanked the portal to jump inside the minivan. The portal was causing quite a suck, so to say, as Viktoria almost slipped and fell into the portal (horizontally, ever watched a horror movie?), but Z managed to save her. Robert was at the wheel, and Lerri was looking at a map. We needed to stop and obtain supplies, but not now.

So we escaped school, dodged several portals opening left and right, and we were on the road.

So now, what basically happened from now on, was that we drove the minivan, stopped once to refuel, and stopped again to get supplies for the trip, stealing the precious time we had. It was spring/summer, so the day lasts longer by default, and it was morning. Yet the clouds were catching on, slowly, but surely. During driving, we talked. These people never went to my high school in real life, so it was a bit weird. But the way they talked and behaved felt like it was for real. For example, Elizabeta is a "top student" so to say, and plays rugby (we have male and female rugby), basically a "valedictorian" so to say. Lerri cheated his way through school, Z failed math once, and Viktoria is struggling with studying since her head is in the clouds (not literally). Out of all, I mostly talked with Viktoria, because I myself am kinda like her, and we could talk about shit, like movies and games. I know we connected as soon as she mentioned Minecraft

So, minivan trip over, we are at the coast. Z parked (twas his turn to drive), we got out, he locked the car, and me and Nikola carried our supplies over to the sailboat Robert's uncle owns. Motherfucker didn't even ask his uncle, just said he would have to "borrow" it for the time being. So the boat starts, its near 11, and we go on a long voyage over the sea, to Italy.

That shit lasted really long. I had a nap at that point. I woke up two hours later to the gang laughing about something. Going to them revealed to me that they were talking about old life a lot, talking about some teachers, and the usual talk about some third person who I had never met but was a good friend to them. I get this a lot in real life, so it wasn't any diffrent. I made myself a sandwich, and looked at the sky. The sickly green clouds covered half of it. The Sun was high, it was 1-2 pm, and we were 1/3 to Italy. Croatia, and by extend, entire Eastern Europe was covered in the dark, green shade. It would be a long trip.

This time I talked with everyone, but still hanged a lot with Viktoria. Turns out she knew my friend from real life and they didn't talk a lot, but once that friend mentioned me, so that is how she kinda picked up who I was. She decided to take a nap, and so did I. Except we didn't nap for long, we just talked a bit more while lying in our beds, until she just fell to sleep. And so I did too.

(DREAM INSIDE THE DREAM OHMAIGAAAWD)

I then dreamt of the Spire City, but instead of Spires there were tentacles, spreading and whipping around. I was on top of some levitating platform, as I heard terrible screams that kinda spooked me awake.

(Back to the dream)

Turns out most of the crew had the same dream, and Lerri even saw me in his dream. So we figured out, as long as we are awake, we are safe from the mad Realm of Sickly Green Clouds And Tentacles And Shit. And so, we sailed, until a bigger portal opened in the middle of the sea. Of course, the fucking boat went in like nothing, as we were travelling down the sea in the Sickly Green Ocean, which was part stormy, part calm, until we found another portal from which we went through, narrowly dodging the tentacles (pure luck perhaps). One of the tentacles grabbed Elizabeta and Z, as I took a axe(there was a axe somewhere) and strick the tentacle holding him. But Elizabeta was in big trouble (hentai intensifies), and we had to pull her out. Mika came out with a flare gun, and Robert took a machete (now that is confusing), and we managed to barely save Elizabeta. Viktoria did the smart thing and hid inside the boat, which kinda caused a shitstorm as soon as we got out of the portal. I stood to her defence like a neckbeard, but still, we were a bit relieved (causing the shitstorm to pass) when we realized the portal voyage basically had us skip 2/3 of the voyage. We were mere kilometers near Italy's coast. It was afternoon. The clouds were now covering most of the sky, leaving a bit of clear sky on the horizon. We did some quick shit, Lerri talked with some dude who rented bikes in Italian, and we all got bicycles, which we used to go as west as possible. And so we did. We pedalled a lot, pedalled right out of the small town we tied the boat in. Turns out no one but us sees the sickly green clouds, people were commenting on the clear sky weather back in Croatia, and people were sweating in the Italian town, as far as I could get with my toddler-level Italian, complaining about the heat and the scorching sun. Odd.

What made Robert and Z swear a lot was the fact that we forgot to bring the supplies from the boat, and we didn't have time to go back to the docks. We basically stole the bikes. If we came back, the rent-a-bike dude would be pissed and cops would be all over us and we would have to spend precious hours in custody instead of going for the sun. What mattered more is that we didn't exchange our currency for Euros, so we cannot just "buy" more supplies. We would have to go hungry and thirsty.

So with this logistical nightmare, coupled with the actual nightmare behind us, our morale went low. Even Mika went quiet. And we pedalled in silence, until evening came. And with evening, the storm kicked in. The Sickly Green storm. The sun was still setting, the fiery orb still glowing, but the wind kicked up, there was this... funny smell... we had to stop and hole up. At least no more portals had shown up. We haven't really thought about this. At least I didn't. Robert thought a lot about what would we do once we ran out of time, and the "holing up" seemed like the best strategy we had. We found a cabin somewhere in the hills, and jumped from our bikes, going for the door. Lerri picked the lock, as we all went in, and we started pilling the furniture, sealing off all possible entrances. Atleast the guys did. Me, Mika and Viktoria decided to scour the cabin. The cabin was a large-sized weekend-getaway, obviously vacant, but there were some supplies in stock. No foodstuffs though, but two bottles of wine in the fridge and some usual fruits, like grapes, bananas, raspberries, blackberries, stuff like that. There was running water and electricity. The tourist season would kick in soon, I reckon, by the time I had this dream, so I figured out it would make sense for the landlords to have some "welcoming" supplies. So, all openings sealed, we thought we were through. Our initial plan was to have two people on lookout for the first shift, while everyone else showered, then we would all nap until morning.

That plan didn't even reach step one.

The floor beneath us shook, wind was really turning it up outside, and we heard bizarre noises coming from everywhere. Black oily liquid pouring in through the ceiling, in the walls, in the floor. This was the end of our journey. Robert just shook his head, calmly accepting his fate. Lerri freaked out, and Nikola dissappeared (probably went into another room). Elizabeta went all like "This isn't happening!", Mika started screaming, and Viktoria was crying. I, however, started fighting this like a animal. Usually, when under pressure like this, I go all out. When fightning eldritch meterological conditions, it can get tough, but I roared and and wrecked the furniture.

My body decided I had enough sleep and so, I was granted a vision of things. Suddenly, nothing was scary. Nay, I was furious. Absolutely pissed. This all seemed like a prank-gone-too-far, so I opened the front door, saw tentacles slapping around the landscape, as I ran out. I heard Viktoria scream out my name, and I said nothing. Everyone else looked at where I was going. I was going to the front of the house, seemingly to the tentacles. They started approaching me, as I raised both of my middle fingers, as I yelled out:

"FUCK! YOU! FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU! YOU DON'T EXIST! YOU CANNOT HARM ME! YOUR ATTACKS ARE FUTILE! MY SPIRIT HAD SEEN THROUGH YOUR INVASION, AND MY DETERMINATION STRIKES AT THEE! BEGONE, BITCH! WHY THE FUCK SHOULD I BE AFRAID OF SOMETHING THAT DOESN'T EVEN EXIST?! YOU CAN SUCK ON MY COCK! COME ON! GET YOUR DAILY NUTRIENTS BITCH! SUCK THEM OUT! YOU DON'T EXIST! YOU CANNOT EXIST! EVEN IF YOU DID, ALL YOUR TENTACLES COULDN'T ADD UP TO MY CAT'S DICK! FEAR ME BITCH! YOU CAME FROM MY MIND! AND FROM MY MIND YOU WILL GO AWAY! COWER AND FEAR! CEASE YOUR ILLUSION! YOU DON'T EXIST, THEREFORE I WIN!"

I said a lot of more things while performing rude gestures pointed at the likes of the Sickly Green Storm, but I only wrote these down in my diary :/

Either way, after my rant, the tentacles retracted, the clouds dissipated, and all was calm and clean. The weekend-getaway cabin was actually all fine and dandy from outside. The crew stared at me in shock. I felt my body dragging me out of that nap, although I couldn't tell. I waved to my friends, said "This was some good shit, goodbye guys!", and I woke up staring at the sunset, and in return, woke up looking at the sun.

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The meaning of this dream is still a mystery to me. It all felt so real, and I could tell time was passing normally in that dream, almost as if all of that was legit happening. One part of me wonders whenever or not that was real and I had actually died, and my real life is my after-life in purgatory. Explains all the bad shit happening in 2016 and 2017 I guess. That one part wonders of what happened to the crew afterwards. Learning about Lovecraft earlier this year has me guessing that all the "sky clearing up" was a illusion and I actually got gored by a tentacle while they stared in shock. Poor Viktoria. Oh well. That was a dream I guess. I really hope that, if that short trip was a real thing, that those guys are okay. Seeing how Elizabeta fared against the tentacles kinda freaked me out. I didn't really think of this for a while, but I guess this thread reminded me. Thanks for that! And I mean it!

I dreamed that the whole world listened to death metal.. and then I had an unsettling dream where I was wondering in one of my maps that's still landlocked in Revelations of Doom, it's an extremely dark map (atmosphere wise) that I named "Lamentation", I don't think I'll ever make a more surreal map than it, it has areas inspired by Knee Deep in the Dead, American Mcgee's maps in Doom 2 E1 that use the metal textures, Kurt Kesler's maps and Sandy's Spirit World... naturally it's level 31 and the only way I pulled it off was by making it linear. ;P

About this part, back when I was a kid I used to have nightmares almost every single night ffs, and what were they all about? Every damn time, in a way or another, a sense of fear haunts me and I ultimately almost always end up dying, be it killed by someone or something.

Around the time I turned 11 or so they mysteriously stopped, but it doesn't change the fact that my early years have been plagued by them, and what were the chances of all having the same conclusion?