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Post by Deleted on Dec 19, 2017 21:04:25 GMT -5
I notice I'm a bit obsessive compulsive. Especially when it comes to checking certain websites over and over and over again. Expecting something new to happen. What the fuck is wrong with my brain? How about you????????
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Post by Deleted on Dec 19, 2017 23:50:09 GMT -5
I have tendencies but seem to be more self aware these days of what’s going on upstairs, so I’ve learned when to say fuck it.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 20, 2017 5:42:08 GMT -5
I still haven't gotten over some childish rituals. Sometimes if I see a company's name on the street I'm almost "required" to count the number of letters in it, and then I "win" if it's even and "lose" if it's odd (but if I lose I can also go to the bonus round where I count the number of holes in the letters instead, for example "picture" has 2 holes so it's a winning word). Or if I touch my left shoulder with a finger I might feel like it's necessary to touch the right one in a similar manner, otherwise the action is "incomplete" and makes me a little uncomfortable. Like glenzinho, I'm much much better at just saying "fuck it" nowadays, but the fight is still going on.
And yeah, I'm also checking certain websites all the damn time. I guess it helps with winning in the local screenshot guessing game, but aside from that it's really annoying and I imagine it easily amounts to hours of pointless browsing per day. I tried addons that restrict your use of the internet but just ended up uninstalling them lol. Maybe ultimately it's something I have to conquer by myself, without the help of some programs. Anyway, it already went down from visiting sites like 100 times per day to maybe 10 times per day, which is a slight improvement I suppose.
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Post by 40oz on Dec 21, 2017 13:33:51 GMT -5
I get really angry with myself each night because I'll spend my day at work fantasizing about how productive I'll be when I get home. The list of expectations for myself is usually pretty short but I still only accomplish like 10% of it. What's on Doomer Boards? Whats on facebook? What's on doomworld? ITS ALWAYS NOTHING AND I STILL CHECK THESE THINGS SEVERAL TIMES A DAY
edit: I'm also not nearly as expeditionary as I wish I was. I really believe it has to do with some sort of neural pathway in my brain that I seldom notice is out of my control. The internet is this vast library of interesting information which would be awesome if I knew the right questions to ask but I almost always gravitate to these internet wastelands and attempt to wring every little detail of useless garbage out of it like a crackhead. I see the internet as this awesome resource but way too much of my time is wasted versus being productive with it. I have more trouble thinking of thought provoking questions than I used to. I just open up my web browser and submit into this empty trance of staying glued to what's happening on this particular website instead of exploring what else is out there and opening my mind to new and interesting things that change the way I think about the world.
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Post by TOS on Dec 21, 2017 16:35:16 GMT -5
I get really angry with myself each night because I'll spend my day at work fantasizing about how productive I'll be when I get home. The list of expectations for myself is usually pretty short but I still only accomplish like 10% of it. What's on Doomer Boards? Whats on facebook? What's on doomworld? ITS ALWAYS NOTHING AND I STILL CHECK THESE THINGS SEVERAL TIMES A DAY edit: I'm also not nearly as expeditionary as I wish I was. I really believe it has to do with some sort of neural pathway in my brain that I seldom notice is out of my control. The internet is this vast library of interesting information which would be awesome if I knew the right questions to ask but I almost always gravitate to these internet wastelands and attempt to wring every little detail of useless garbage out of it like a crackhead. I see the internet as this awesome resource but way too much of my time is wasted versus being productive with it. I have more trouble thinking of thought provoking questions than I used to. I just open up my web browser and submit into this empty trance of staying glued to what's happening on this particular website instead of exploring what else is out there and opening my mind to new and interesting things that change the way I think about the world. I have this same issue. My job is super boring, and the manager for our account recently changed our policy so we can't look at our cell phones during the slow periods anymore. That sucks, because we also can't read books there. So I get bored and think about cool shit to do when I get home, but then come here instead. So to combat this, I looked for an often overlooked problem I have never thought to try and fix myself. Then it hit me. My bed. My bed is old and shitty. So I have started looking up different methods of building my own bedframe using lumber. It is going to be a very fun, educational, and rewarding endeavor!
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