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Indeed, haven't seen Doomkid around on both DW and Doomer Boards as of late.

Doomguy 2000 say something bro, I see you popping your head in here from time to time. What’s up with you these days dude?

Heh. The knowledge part is just chilling with the word "UAC".

I know it’s a little early but it’s well into Wednesday here, so happy Fourth of July to my cuddly gun toting firework exploden American pals! May the drinking be many and the cunting be few.

So I started streaming since yesterday. Damn, I was super nervous the first time, but it's fine now.

Figured I should mention this here as well in case someone wants to watch me playing, just don't expect a microphone (or pro skills, for that matter), apparently the one I've got isn't good enough: www.doomworld.com/forum/topic/67952-doom-streams/?page=94

I got detention in the military for 10 days for forgetting a stupid hat.
So far 6 days passed, 4 more until I can finally go home, play and make Doom maps, I'm looking forward to play Golden Souls 2, stream Struggle afterwards and work on my personal projects (Dwango9, a 5-map duel pack and a realistic smooth time travel megawad).

Temperature is awful out here, it's either too cold or hot and I caught a cold because I'd rather have that instead of sweating my balls off.

It's not like you think, I just can't go home and I have to sign a paper every few hours, that's about it.

The evidence piles up.

I have suspected for some time now that Mr. Lazarev is the Doomguy. Just think about it!

Young enough to be of the right age in the future, obsessed with creating little electronic mazes in which you must take ultra-violent action against demons...

While in the service, he's clearly a rebel against authority, and the janitor bit fits well with these theories. Maes was on to something, that's for sure.

So how's it going with those chiseled abs, joe-ilya ? Are you being sent to Mars soon - or perhaps, are you already there? Because why would it be common knowledge that the UAC has secret radioactive waste facilites on Phobos? The liberals would go crazy if they knew.

Any comments from the man himself?

My bass player once came up with silly lyrics to a silly riff of mine once. It's called Sister Mary:

Sister Mary, She was a sister who had a cucumber patch
Sister Mary, She was a sister who had a cucumber patch
Thought I saw the Sister doing push ups in her cucumber patch
Wonder what a sister, sister is doing, doing push ups in her cucumber patch

Sister Mary, Mother Mary
Sister Mary
What are you doing
Sister Mary, Mother Mary
What'll Mother Superior think of you?

Sister Mary

To avoid any 2personal4u info I'll be vague.

I finally told a very special someone how I feel about them, they said they felt the same... Now I'm being assaulted by a new level of crushing dread, existential horror and crippling doubts, why does everything have to be so hard? Why can't I be happy?

They mean so much to me yet I've persuaded myself that I'm nothing to them despite the actual literal disproving of that very thing! This is going to end badly, I need to stop and fix myself right now, I can't hurt them, I won't.

Turns out some of those doubts were right, when they said they loved me, it didn't mean they were in love.

I'm friend, a part of their life they love, but not an actual "love".
That is fine and I can respect that, I misinterpreted them and was foolish to believe I was something else and was too fast in my thoughts, this hubris will destroy me and the blame is all on me, it's hard to accept this but I must.

This week has been hard, hurts worse every day, only one day left and I shudder at what awaits me.

Friendzone strikes again :_(
Stay strong bro, you're neither the first nor the last one to suffer this
Look at it this way -- you're literally being a part of something positive in another person's life. Let that sink in