Why did you get banned from doomworld?

i think they ban everyone because the doomerboardws website ane the doomhaven website have more beautiful website layouts so they get angry , and ban people who made the doomerboards website because they feel jealous. and because dn is an admin too so they suspect , he could be responsible for the layout of the website but i dont know that. and that is what i suspect. and because doomerboards has better map makers , because i noticed i play either my own wads OR i play auger zenith but i dont often play some thing from doomworld. the only wad i like to play from there , is alien vendetta but the other wad is doom the way id did and i have noticed that 40oz made it. so that means maybe they re just angry at doomerboards because of this and they ban everyone because maybe they thought , oh now tehy cant upload the wads anymore...... but they had not thought they would create their own doom website for their own wads .... so .... maybe that is why they still ban people. but i am not sure. but i think its my thought on why they could do this. i just thought about it and i think thats the reason , or one of the reasons if theres more reasons than that. and doomworld doesnt look like a doom website at all , it looks so normal and doomerboards has an image from a big army of demons in the top at the logo and the layout looks more beautiful and has better colors. and doomhaven has doom textures and stuff every where and the website looks very 90s so it also fits doom very well. and its just so much better and the admins from doomworld , dontr know how to put doom textures and stuff on their website to make it look like doom , and thats why they have not put them there and why the website looks so normal. but deathclaw does so they did not delete the ban for deathclaw after he became a very much better person.

oh my god that sounds very dumb of them. that was stupid of them to ban for that. and it makes no sense because they did not explain it so they banned you for no reason , and that is VERY WRONG AND MORALLY REPREHENSIBLE I GET ANGRY WHEN I READ THAT !!!! why did they do this ? i dont get it

I got permabanned back in like 2016 because I asserted that Eron Gjoni was an abuse victim. Like Joe-Ilya I reached out to Linguica about it (because it was completely without warning) and I got similarly blocked. I figure given how long ago that was, if I talk to a Doomworld admin about it I could get back in, but given how admins behave over there (especially recently with how Mordeth straight-up doxed somebody to threaten them) I really don't want to return.

Wrong, i got banned because i said something about people with gender dysphoria, i said the one sentence "People are confused about their gender" and Major arlene got all upset.

i never threatened anyone, where did you hear that?

Yes, that was the very last thing that happened after an aggregated 10 years of small microaggressions towards the doomworld authority. It culminates in being banned for something like that.

I almost never broke any rules. but during my time spent on being on different doom related forums ive always felt challenged by authority figures. Thats 100% true. Its my opinion that we are all people with a niche interest, and who gets selected to be an authority figure to me sometimes feels like its people who would somehow benefit from having popularity and influence through a means other than their own gumption and love for the game.

(Arent most of doomworlds moderators and kool kids club people currently involved in ongoing projects that are being or eventually going to be sold for money? It has to serve you somehow to hold court in a community and silence people that can hurt your image and therefore your income stream?? Especially when im not sarcastic and listen to people and do all the shit i do in an effort to make doom forums stay fun, all on my own time and all for free? Uhh, youre fucking welcome, doom community..?)

its weird that a community member can just be selected to be one that decides what people should be allowed to talk about. No one should really have that kind of power over one another. I really dont like being the one that has it here. I do everything in my strength to almost never have to use it. I only want to make decisions like that only when my inaction can make the experience of playing doom and enjoying doom with other people worse. If you are someone who can at the very least keep the experience of checking this forum fun for everyone, and very rarely make people feel miserable, then youre ok in my book.

But sometimes there are places where you can get in trouble just for talking about a particular topic even if the talk is about "why is this topic bad just so i can know about it and why it became bad in the first place"

Why the fuck does that have to be off-limits?

When youre upholding law like that even when the law isnt even relevant anymore on 2022, youre just being a fascist pig. We are supposed to care about not spamming up the forum when every social media channel inundates us with spam and useless notifications in every waking moment of our lives? Forums? Forums are the outdated communication channel that are the ones we need to keep sacred?? Come on.

I do my best to lead by example. I do everything i can to keep the conversation of Doom relevant. I do it to make the experience of being on doomer boards fun, and keep people active in modding and playing the game when it feels like its on the verge of being not fun or hooking peoples attention anymore. And it do be like that sometimes.

Its hard to enjoy doom when it feels like the people surrounding it are miserable. Its ok if youre in this for yourself sometimes, but I dont really like being in the doom community around people who dont wanna be a net positive for Doom. We are talking to each other here because its not easy to connect with people about a game like Doom anymore.

Linguica made the decision to ban me and that dude doesnt even do doom shit anymore. He wasnt even around when i did all the microaggressions that added up to my eventual ban. Why does a forum ban have to outlive his interest in the game? What kinda bullshit is that? Doomer boards forum created nearly a thousand maps in a few years. How the fuck do you get to tell me if i can talk to doomers where i wanna talk about this game??

I totally get you 40oz. Because of trauma growing up I've always had a contentious relationship with authority throughout my life. For me, anybody holding any measure of authority (even something as incidental as, say, "forum moderator") is somebody I end up being incredibly suspicious of. Combine that with my general tendency to assume bad faith in people (another part of my own personal trauma) and it always ends up with me being in an adversarial relationship with authority, which generally isn't good for your health. It's something I've been working on for a very long time to fix but it's slow, and in the meantime I've hurt and let down many people I cared about, and lost many more.

I've come to recognize a pattern that I once saw described: "Punishment is not something that happens to bad people. It happens to those who cannot stop it from happening. It is laundered pain, not a balancing of scales." Generally speaking, the worst punishments aren't reserved for those who actually deserve them, but rather for those at the bottom ends of the totem pole. In the context of an Internet community, this generally means fucked-up broken weirdos (like me!) get shunned, shoved under the rug, and beaten down by those who have the social graces necessarily to manipulate their way into positions of power. It's not an accident that Doomworld's "leadership" (such as it were) are unscrupulous bullies.

But yeah, i have always shunned forum Admins and only tried to contact one out of necessity. i talked to Doomkid before he became admin, and i talked to him a little bit afterwards, but i think Doomkid is a nice guy overall. but you guys know who i am talking about, the upper crust of administration, like Mordeth, Arlene, dew, Esselfortium, and of course Linguica.
i tried contacting Arlene once so i could change my username back, she never responded though.

It is usually the leaders that i Shun the most, but here i dont feel that way, and it is usually because 40oz interacts with his community and shows that he still holds the original intent of the Doom community in his heart, i respect that.
Linguica is never active and he just seems like a shady guy overall, in my opinion. it seems like he lost what made him love doom in the first place and that is why i never really liked him in my short couple of years over there. But i can see that me being banned was a good thing, i have a silver lining for being banned.

and i never started making maps for the Cacowards, fuck the Cacowards. I started making maps so that the community can criticize and enjoy them. that is what i enjoy about the community.

what does that mean

oh my god chopping the dick of them off would be painful. why do you want to do that.

i also agree , deathclaw is a very good person and a really good friend and because of that everyone should forgive him for threatening some one. because i talk to him a lot and he is alwsays very nice and very supportive and because of that he is a very good person nowadays.

that felt rude , why did you call him kid