Okay, let's start from as far back as I can pheasibly remember.
In /doom/'s earliest days on /v/, before /vr/ was created, i was a pretty frequent poster, talking about doom and it's subsidiary creations (heretic, hexen, strife, etc.) and the countless gameplay/map wads. Most people joked around, and it was a relatively clear and entertaining place. "Doombro" as he's called, used to make some doom comic drawings and I indeed enjoyed them. Anyway; being who I am, I ever so kindly provided feedback and playtesting of other people's wads, but also awaited the next doom comic drawing. People were getting antsy, and for whatever reason I decided to "impersonate" Doombro.- which whilst pissing some people off, made him get off his lazy ass, stop drawing porn, and make a damn comic again, so forgive me for feeling justified in this. Anyway, at some point I left the thread for a couple of years; after being banned from the #vr IRC channel on Zandronum, but that didn't stop them from parading my name around as their scapegoat for control. The #vr IRC eventually formed their own cult-of-personality around themselves once they had a janitor/admin in place on /vr/, silencing and banning anybody who's views disagreed with their own. They deny their existence, but they are as real as the world around us; presumably lead by Terminusest13, Ijon, Mike12, Imx, Kegan, Xaser and many more, with the full intent to derail and shut down any discussion of the game, and seep into any corner they can to disrupt or impede newcomers to the modding scene such as myself, or any projects they don't like. Nevertheless, prior to leaving, I helped make Benellus- something they'll flat out deny.
Come 2014/2015, here comes Turtle Rock Studio's Evolve, being the /v/irgins they are, they relentlessly shit on the title just because my name was thrown around in the threads (which is partially how i found out about the game alongside the posting of the THQ Bankrupcy. I had to be alerted to this fact of people namedropping me well prior to any of the macro's creation), nothing less, nothing more. (STOP LIKING WHAT I DON'T LIKE! essentially) They failed to get a dox, and still parade around their flawed, cherry picked macros all day.
Anyway, come 2017 after a time of lurking again, I decide to make my first map for Terminusest13's Highway 2 Hell, wherein I asked the thread whenever I had issues. They were mostly okay with Anomalous Properties- UNTIL they found out who made it, and how I know it's just a grudge thing; My name in my map is not a flaw; especially when other map authors do it all the time. Knowing they've fucked up, they start censoring and banning me again, coming up with endless deceptions to sow about me and propping themselves up as the "good guys"- when the mere mention of anything I've done causes the -entire- Doominati #vr circlejerk to come out of the woodwork every time, and blame anything they don't like on me, where I'm just trying to contribute to the general at hand. So, they make up countless little stories and infiltrate every community they can to impede me, to prevent me from exposing the truth about them. Such wonderful shit they've accused me of are:
Impersonating Doombro - One of the few things that I legitimately did do and owe up to. Ban Evasion - Literally never happened. Faking a Suicide - Never happened Posting my maps - "STOP LIKING WHAT I DON'T LIKE!" Editing a girl's sprite to piss herself - Also never happened- especially when it was more than likely part of a skins wad made by SANDERSON CALLUM. Shitting up the /vr/ Doom Threads - I very actively report shitposts in the general, so this isn't so. Yet, they're fully free to shitpost without consequence? That sounds like blatant favoritism. Namedropping - It's an anonymous image board. Anybody can do this; I don't.
Come joy of mapping 3, I end up making a small map for it; and everybody's mostly okay with this until THEY catch wind of it; so they send such wonderful people such as "Squawkyatan" and many more, to continue to harrass me at every opportunity. Nevertheless, I still help out with E4M1, and E4M2- of which Jimmy&Co threatened to remove and ban them from the project if they didn't revert my edits; And they did not comply.I had made an edit of somebody else in the project's map (which, was not distributed nor submitted), proposing the use of the Roots Pack for E2M1 for JOM4. They immidiately all jumped on me without hearing me out and spoke for the map author as if it was factually so and they knew what he wanted, even though he wasn't even online and was impossibly notorious to get ahold of. They say I edited it without permission, which is true; but let's face it, this is not the first time it has ever happened; so why is it that whenever I do something everybody else does, it's suddenly fucking taboo? Excuse my doubts, but this seems like a heap of favoritism to me. Nevertheless, I keep contributing to the thread. Everybody who I ask -externally of that event- says that it looks much better WITH the non-intrusive roots, and I'm pretty sure the map author was threatened or forced to cave to peer pressure.
But I still keep on going; because I am the one who has been wronged over a shitty joke, I had and have every desire of game development since childhood, several personal reasons like trying to rid myself of less-desirable traits, to spite the Doominati plebs who conspire against me and anybody who opposes their control and so forth. Recently I've been still contributing, and they've shit any project I've contributed to into the ground [space castle, /vr/y spooky, etc.]. even though they praise my maps until, yet again, they know who made them, then they're instantaneously irredeemable shit-garbage.
I don't care if I go down; as long as I expose these people for the frauds they are in the process; and open people's eyes to their bullshit.
As some here have so eloquently put, the weeaboos spray their phermones whenever the hivemind is threatened, just like they're doing on Doomworld and shitting that site up.
Suffice to say; it is Character assassination, Cyberstalking and Cyber Defamation. I am not the person I once was, and it is in fault part of theirs.
I am in considerable agony, and If I could force my pains upon those who have gone to these lengths, to make them see the truth and from my perspective, then I would do so.
Mostly the pain, though.
If they really did know the first thing about me, the slightest sliver, they would of held their tongue and said nothing.
I probably should of taken the hint at "SCHOOL" in the Joy of Mapping thing. That's another thing they get wrong; the image macros point at people completely unrelated to myself. I never completed -any- form of school, and never meshed with those scenarios.
Post by terminusest13 on Feb 13, 2018 22:54:42 GMT -5
Hello! Not really much of a cage match if it's only one person fighting, isn't it? I generally try to stay out of forum drama, I'm more interested in making things and watching other people make things. But with his latest meltdown as of yesterday, I've realized that S'arais has been a spoiled brat throwing a tantrum for far too long. In a sentence, this bitch is fucking crazy. I've never seen someone with such unbelievably low self-esteem and yet such an overinflated sense of self and what he's done. I've never seen someone lie so much while getting so angry about how other people are supposedly lying about him. He will hijack unrelated topics to be about him, then get angry when people post things about him. He will do his best to convince everyone else that the world is against him, when many of these issues are either 100% his own doing or entirely made-up. He is a very self-destructive individual.
One thing you'll notice about S'arais is that he never posts logs, never posts screenshots, never posts any concrete evidence. It's all he-said-she-said bullshit. This is because everything he says about what happened to him is either a lie or a strange fantasy he's made up to be the oppressed victim. Everything he says is double-speak, and nothing is to be taken at face value. He is a liar with a martyrdom complex. On the contrary, I come bearing gifts. Enjoy!
pastebin.com/31jwutKm - This is the very first encounter I have with him, and frankly, I didn't even remember it until recently. This was over four years ago, I'd kind of just moved on. Near as I can tell from a cursory glance over it, S'arais started making a whole bunch of jokes about a new Holocaust to kill more jews in a Friday Night Fragfest server, a weekly public Zandronum community event where folks get together. The server admin (ijon) called him a fucking moron and banned him from the server. He went to #vr (for some reason) to complain about it (even though #vr really had nothing to do with Zandronum), and ijon called him a fucking moron there, too. He left the server (entirely of his own volition) and the channel admin (Eric) banned him after the fact. This was over four years ago. It seems that, in his mind, the channel is not only still active but also routinely conspires against him, directing anonymous shitposts at him and controlling the moderators that ban him.
Meanwhile, this is what has happened in the #vr IRC server recently. i.imgur.com/jSYLSkB.png The IRC channel is fucking dead. Nobody talks about him, the most recent activity we've had is yesterday randoms joining in and saying "Wait there's no S'arais discussion going on here?". We've played Doom, we've had fun, we've fought, we've had good times, we've had bad times, we've made memories, some people have moved on to other games, some people have picked up modding and joined other communities, some people have moved to Discord. We've had fun, but nothing lasts forever so we've moved on.
Now, the next encounter he talks about, what he refers to as "Highway 2 Hell". The Highway to Hell mapset is a ZDoom mapset I'm (very slowly) working on--when I first announced it on /vr/, I'd aimed for it to be a community collaboration. Ultimately, though, there were only a couple submissions, so I'd shrugged and decided I'd work on it privately and release it when ready. S'arais did indeed make a map for it! The problem is, his map is utter trash. i.imgur.com/OHwzpfn.png i.imgur.com/laDRlEd.png i.imgur.com/8sO96ac.png No really, it's fucking trash. It looks ugly, it plays ugly, it's done with no sense of texture alignment or placement. He says that most people were okay with the map--that's a straight-up fucking lie. People chewed him out for how it looked, for the texture alignment, for how he drew it freehand without attaching to the grid, for how it's long and thin corridors with enemies packed in, and more. I rejected the map. It's an awful map, and I told him it's an awful map. I just went about my business, but little did I know this would be the catalyst for when he truly snapped.
The next encounter happened under very much the same circumstances. Now, I can't 100% confirm this; I'm a friend of Jimmy and I wasn't actually in the Discord at the time, so I got the entire tl;dr by hearsay. So take this with a grain of salt. Jimmy is a mapper that hosts community events called "The Joy of Mapping", with emphasis on bringing newcomers into the folds and teaching them how to map. I've never actually participated in one, but lots of criticism from different folks. S'arais was no exception. He worked on his map. It was bad, but people shrugged because nobody expects a newcomer to map well. Now, the problem was when he started editing other people's maps as well. Already a pretty touchy thing as it is, but when a bad mapper decides to take it on himself to "fix" other people's "mistakes", then he got the boot. Now, I said "take this with a grain of salt", so here's the logs if you want to see how it all went down. imgur.com/a/DNvYE Whoever sent these shots to me apparently had the text size down to "microscopic", but it's what we've got.
This next part is definitely not "grain of salt" material. Now, around this time, S'arais's pet died. Because of this, he was not 100% in the right state of mind, and so he got really fucking mad about his rejection and decided to shit up Doomworld over it. He proclaimed himself to be the god of Doom, that his way was the true way. People were simply trying to oppress him, they were scared of his vision and what he could become. He said people were disrespecting Ty Halderman and that his death meant nothing to everybody. It was fucking crazy. Here are the four pages of the topic. i.imgur.com/sUiQbYI.png i.imgur.com/KsCFB1N.png - That's me halfway down! Hi, mom! i.imgur.com/krsvt1F.png i.imgur.com/Z1xTvdt.png I was willing to give him the benefit of the doubt at the time. None of us think straight during times of grieving. Death hits us all hard. He's just hurt, he needed time to heal.
That was nice to think at the time, but it's almost half a year later and he's still spewing out the same lies about how everyone is trying to oppress him. He's still trying to use other people's deaths as ammo. And now he's actively threatening people who supposedly have wronged him.
Like, fucking hell, my dude.
Do you want to know what the Doominati actually is? Here, have some HOT LEAKS from the server. i.imgur.com/RsWQnyE.png i.imgur.com/OnKvC9t.png i.imgur.com/KcxZoVd.png It's a Discord server (nothing to do with IRC or #vr at all, despite your conspiratorial ravings) where we can talk about making stuff and prod at how to fix stuff, how to improve our stuff, bug reports for our stuff, and what's the most efficient way to code things. It's a server where we can play video games and talk about how much we like video games. It's a server where we can host nights where we watch weeb shit and play Zandronum online with different gameplay mods. It has nothing to do with you aside from mention of "Dude S'arais is flipping his shit on Doomworld". It has nothing to do with controlling the community or controlling what people create. How the fuck would we even do that, anyway? Do we all make posts on a forum going "STOP MAPPING FOR BOOM, MAKE MORE ZDOOM MAPS"? Nobody would follow that anyway. Even if we all wanted more ZDoom mapsets, people are able (and allowed) to make whatever they want. And, here's the thing, that's perfectly all right that people do other stuff we aren't invested in.
You're not going to believe me, but I never actually ever held a grudge against you. I liked the fact that you were still trying to make things, even after slipping up. I've been there, long long long ago, before joining the Doom community. I know how it feels, struggling with hammering your head against the wall to learn something, making no progress, desperately trying to climb out of the pit of mediocrity to try and figure out how to Make Good Thing. I've never tried to censor you, tell you to stop making anything, or anything of the sort. Even if your maps are trash, I thought the fact that you're still trying to make them contribute to the community was good. I was happy for you and was hoping that you would finally get your big break, that you would release something amazing and finally be at peace.
RIGHT ON QUEUE AND ALREADY LYING FROM THE WORD GO. Now he sprays the pheromones and gets his butt-buddies. I love how you claim your innocence, yet proceed to paste proof of your guilt and especial omissions of anything that would put your ass on the fryer.
Where do you want to meet? I will engage in fisticuffs. In real life. I will beat that admission of guilt and your treachery out of you in one-on-one. You know NOTHING about me, so don't pretend to. That was not the first time we had met, either.
I know it's you in the /vr/ threads. Every single time the whole fucking gang shows up. Explain this supposed innocence when you and your assclown friends are free to shit up the thread uncontested?
Every single word you have said is lies, deception. Propaganda. You and your fuckbuddies have been stalking and harassing me for the past five years.
Can you even tell one singular truth? Because you haven't said one truth of fact in your one, singular post. You have been Going out of the way to create rich media to target me, to slander me, to defame me. and employing a mix of open and covert methods to achieve their goals, such as raising false accusations, planting and fostering rumors, and manipulating information.
You and your cronies have been taking every single hour of your life specifically to make mine a living hell. And you know what? I'll return it in any possible way I can.
Like what exactly did you do to get yourself banned from a smut community? It's a whole website dedicated to people being open about the nastiest things they do in the privacy of their bedrooom, and you somehow got banned from that?
Also I can verify the twitter threats were real, I'm the one that told you to eat a snickers: imgur.com/a/2kHM8
I got banned for it for not being a fucking conformist special snowflake and not using it for awful fucking yiffyaff. I got banned from it from having differing views from others. I got banned from it for not immidiately bending over for yiff-yaff and offending administrator's playthings; who claim this chat "isn't about that"- then proceed to post and speak of exactly that. Do they fucking think me gullible?
And here they come. You creating accounts to specifically continue this action, and to bring your cancer to Doomerboards. But anonymity will not save you here.
sarais with the cheap shot at the beginning of the match, looking to get an unfair advantage. Terminus makes his comeback and unleashes a tombstone pastebin piledriver! Can sarais recover? With term’s manager suddenly showing up at ringside his chances are looking slim, King.
Omission and withholding key details to give himself an advantage is typical terminus+doominati affair. If he was telling the truth, why would he continue his behavior in the /vr/ threads here, and bringing his pawns along?
Manipulation involves the psychopath creating a scenario of “psychopathic fiction” where positive information about themselves and negative disinformation about others will be created, where your role as a part of a network of pawns or patrons will be utilised and you will be groomed into accepting the psychopath's agenda. Once on to the confrontation stage, the psychopath will use techniques of character assassination to maintain their agenda, and you will be either discarded as a pawn or used as a patron. Finally, in the ascension stage, the role of the subject as a patron in the psychopath’s quest for power will be discarded, and the psychopath will take for himself/herself a position of power and prestige from anyone who once supported them.
Post by kevansevans on Feb 13, 2018 23:43:11 GMT -5
The burden of evidence dictates that the accusatory is the one to provide the proof. Do you have proof that he's omitting and or withholding anything? Even evidence showing he's trying to slander or put libel on your oh so obvious good name would suffice, and then everyone will realize what a great person you actually are, apologize to you, and name you Doomer of the decade.
Do you have the old version of the map of my H2H submission? It's literally on the floor in the first room. He also TOLD me to make those changes to how they are. I was doing EXACTLY as people told me, and they still started fucking yelling at me for doing what they told me to do; whilst constantly copy-pasting the same thing over and over with insults and catty remarks, and zero real criticism that had anything to do with the map. They continually pasted the mapping tip page; but I had already been following it TO A T.
And what threat? It's a statement. I don't have to actually do anything. Pre-determined Fate will do it for me. This wouldn't be the first time we've had this exact topic in the infinite loop that is existence.
I will get inside your head and drive you mad; much like the same psychological tortures and personality manipulation the Hivemind has subjected me to.
I also don't save these things because I'm not a fucking psychopath who obsesses over a literal who every waking hour of their life; and I don't stoop to the level of collecting bullshit on people; because I'm not the supposed "narcissist" they make me out to be. A narcissist can't accept they've ever made a flaw. And I have done so several times.
They have been harassing and provoking me to get these responses, every time, censoring my posts and deleting them whenever possible so I cannot defend myself, regardless of the context or being entirely on-topic.
Post by kevansevans on Feb 14, 2018 0:08:36 GMT -5
No, I don't personally horde wads.
I don't think you're really understanding what you're trying to disprove here. People have clearly called you out for behavior that is completely inexcusable, and you think a single wad is going to clear your name? If you want us to take you seriously, you need to step up to the plate. You need to show hard evidence countering the evidence those people have provided. If all you scream is "You're a liar" and "DIE DIE DIE", it's complete hear say and the ramblings of a mad man.
Sticking your fingers in your ears to my responces and immidiately disregarding everything I said is not a failure to respond. That's JOM behavior
I don't horde information because I'm not a sad fucking sap who obsesses over getting a rise out of a literal who. You're also expecting me to gather data on something that happened in the past and I didn't bother nor think to collect at the time, because again, I'm not the sad sap utterly obsessing and lusting over marring my name, and I don't stoop to such low levels and the applicable purge. A lack of evidence on the part of the target is not sufficient proof that it did not happen; because the target usually doesn't do those things, and the aggressor of personality and mental manipulation knows this.
He can just as readily partake in a deathmatch duel if he so thinks himself hard enough and doesn't want to engage in real fisticuffs like a man. I'll probably still fucking lose either way, but being impeded and opressed has been a constant throughout my entire life, so this is no diffrent than St. Josephs, Dalhousie, or any other shithole I've been to; so regardless, it would be more entertaining to beat eachother to fictional death in a videogame than have this pissantry that he's carried on for five fucking years.
Something tells me that he's the "doombabby" poster.
Well if you can't actually provide evidence, no one is inclined to believe you. Such a shame, was actually hoping for an intelligent argument to proceed.
Feel free to drive me insane on twitter though, I enjoy pointless banter.
Refusal to look at evidence that one no longer possesses is not a lack of evidence. So because I'm not a mindless halfwit who utterly obsesses over shitting somebody they have no idea or information about, and not one of Terminus's mindless slaves, because I don't attack people for no legitimate reason like Termyboi here, because I don't collect doxx on people because I'm not the kind of person to stoop to such lows like shitting on people over a fucking 23 year old video-game unless provoked by the aggressors in question, I'm not to be believed? Hilarious.
Post by kevansevans on Feb 14, 2018 0:24:51 GMT -5
You're right. I concede to this clear demonstration of logical superiority.
I acknowledge that you have presented zero evidence, and that because some tangible evidence is more, and that the opposing party has presented this form of tangible evidence, I am inclined to believe the side with more evidence.
oh you didn’t know? Terminus slipped out of the cage while you were distracted with his manager, leading to a terminal victory. He’s already back in the locker room downing a few cold ones while you’re still flapping around in the cage and not realising the match is long over.
You notice how terminus has been silent on this entire matter since his post? Suspicious.
I'm not actually affiliated with anyone else here
Which is why you popped up onto this forum at the same time he did specifically only to parrot term's deception. Right. How stupid do you think we are?
And I'll say it again. You and the other Doominati know I purged my computer around the time of the space castle/halloween maps- even though we were specifically allowed to keep mapping through 2018 for the /vr/y spooky project. And you still attacked me and the manager for the sole reason of my participation.
If you can somehow magically unpurge my computer, then the evidence is right there.