What did you accomplish in 2021?

I made a few pretty funny shitposts on an obscure forum dedicated to a game significantly older than myself.

Quit my job, told them to eat shit, got rehired after management ate the requisite amount of shit / place caved in without me, quit again yesterday because additional shit was piling up and management were refusing to put on their bibs.

Fully expect to be rehired again next month. This pandemic / brexit is hilarious, they have to put up with my glorious fuck-you-shittery and pay me obscene amounts of money because alternative staff no longer exist in this dojo.

Became a father.

Wouldn't be that absurd to say, Doomer Boards was started 22 years after the game of which it is based on was released.

In regards to community "being filled with pieces of shit": thanks to the actions of Russian state, and the illusion of "being honestly elected" they managed to maintain so well in the past, I used to think my fellow Russians were shitty people, akin to barbarians. It was the capable artists of Russian doom community that broke that deception first. I learned to respect my own nation exactly thanks to the great contributions of Shadowman, Archi, Eternal, all the people behind Whitemare 2, and others.

So, no, community is not filled with pieces of shit, it is those in the power who are pieces of shit. And yes, sadly power matters a lot. In regards to political power structures (and yes forum is an imitation of one), the Hanlon's razor - "never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity" - doesn't apply. There is a lot of malice in people corrupted by power, the reason being is that in order to develop empathy, you have to keep in check your base desires, to compromise. It is shown that simply being in power position for 8 years destroys capacity for empathy. If there was much of it in first place.

And fear of ostracism, which is reinforced by cruel actions of those who have power over the rest, and all the lip service those actions receive, is difficult to fight. It corrupts the basic life instict - the need to survive, and hijacks it to convince the person that to obey is to do right. (Obedience as a survival strategy, coupled with a moral justification for it) For to resist such fear you need to face the echo chamber of adversity (even within one's own mind!), continuously - not just over and over again, but in non-stop, never-ending manner. You need to be mentally tough and have deep conviction that you are being right to effectively resist it.

For all the tough-on-keyboard I may look to some of you, I have been suffering from depression for years, and even political discussions on doomer boards contributed a handful to my mental suffering, reinforced the loneliness. I'm looking at you people, who didn't like the word "raped" in obituary, promoted vaccination, supported BLM, discredited conservatives while pushing forward the radical left has best intentions, narrowly focused on toxic masculinity (and refused to acknowledge that all humans are capable of toxic behavior on about the same level), criticised concerns for one's privacy, painted Shadowman as an edgelord which he never was etc. It was, by the way, the titanical effort I needed to put to defend Shadowman as not only unrightfully banned but also as not beind edgelord, that caused me to seek involvement in real-life activism and so learn the leftist cancer from within, to try understand their motivation, and why they do those nasty things with restricting speech etc.

And so far, I remain convinced that long-time activists care for "political strategy" more than they are for people next to them. Which, looked from "survival as a motivation behind all actions" perspective, makes sense. You don't need to care for the most disadvantaged to survive. It's enough to spearhead the defense of some "unprivileged" group. The weakest within such group - those who might face ostracism even within it, those who really can't stand for themselves - are pariahs or no concern. Your survival is not linked to them. So. if transgendered people with a history of unfair mental diagnosis - or without acknowledgement from a jury of doctors - can't fight for their own right to receive the treatment and acknowledgement of their transgendered status from the state, you just let them leave your community and fade in obscurity. You don't try to offer them any solace - if they want, you may assist them with another attempt to qualify, where a different jury of doctors would tear into their history and probe them like test subjects, barrage them with a whole battery of tests (and that's the most accepting psychiatrist in Russia, mind you), interview them about all their life (in a manner a dishonest journalist would do - trying to expose the worst in you that contradicts your goals), including sexual activity (or lack thereof), preferences etc. But trying to change the preconception about transgendered people within your own team to make the "support group", well, supportitive - that's of course asking too much.

I still didn't manage to have an eye-to-eye conversation with a top person in LGBTQ+ community I entered. I am no longer involved that community, but I have been waiting for such a conversation for months (still maintain a lose link with just a select few through messenger, including the top person), and I still don't know the date where we may finally meet to discuss it at length. By this point I am not even going to discuss any projects to change anything, I want just to fucking state what's wrong - and not known to be wrong - to that top person. After a whole year of involvement, sure there should be some coming forward with "what was my involvement all about?" And mind I say, I even talked at length with the psychologist - stated all these concerns, etc. but she doesn't discuss it with that person herself. Unfortunately, the only person who can do it is me, but she is not in any hurry to meet me, thinks it can wait. Surely she believes her activism is a good thing, and her approach is best and helps others.

Meanwhile, several transgendered people went to be evaluated and were turned down, leaving the community after that. Not that's anybody within community would chase them out - it's just the support group is shit, and makes them sink in more depression because all that is being discussed is the prospect of evaluation, and a few cool people showing off. So, without being pushed out, these "disenfranchised" transgendered just feel the powerlessness and despair, over and over again. Until they leave on their own, crushed, devastated. And the mother of one such person continued to visit the "parent support" group, where she of course spoke of her child as a mentally ill "not wanting anything". I heard rumors she contacted the doctors, telling them his medical history, so that they would turn him down. And the way they did, was brutal and is completely incompatible with not just medical principles, but even basic human ability to understand the unknown.

P.S. The "survival as a motivation behind all actions" is not just thing that I believe in - a psychologist recently talked with me about the same, the subject was brought precisely in regards of why people choose to be volunteers, activists, etc. Yes, such actions are ultimately self-serving - trying to survive from being good to other people... or not quite. You see, after all activists care about their own identity, which means if someone's affiliation is cast in doubt, they need not care much, for such pariahs = and what happens to them - are once again, not crucial to their own survival.

I've achieved death. Not literally, but judging by my current state... It can be equal to that at some point. I don't want to talk about it that much.
Well at least I haven't dropped my hobbies despite strong depression and constant feel of paranoia now. Antidepressants do not help, they wouldn't work either. I keep create stuff and help one fellow with his game. Although by the hands of other person.
On irl side: nothing. Just got the job, started to keep some spendings at low and save some coin for later.

@vigilantdoomer Well, it's good that the Russian part of the community isn't like the rest of it, but I still stand by my statement. If it wasn't filled with pieces of shit, the staff would've been replaced with actually good people by now, because they would've moved to better places already, but they didn't, and now we have to deal with shit people in power in the biggest places. That's the good thing about the internet, it's not that hard to simply find a different place, or even make a new one. But they kept taking the shit. Sometimes moving to a different place is a better option than fixing the place. But they just won't, and I think that's a good reason to call them pieces of shit because they are who ruined the community, at least the part which doesn't simp for Brutal Doom, speaking of which...
90% of Doomers call themselves Doomers when they've only played Doom with Brutal Doom, like most people in r/Doom, and they fucking simp for it and call it "THE way to play Doom", do I have to explain why they suck as well?
I do agree Shadowman didn't do anything bad, and I share the same opinion with you regarding his ban and rape not being a loaded word.

Passed another subject in school, I need to pass one more subject.

Successfully warmed up for NNN by not doing it for 2 weeks prior.

Got a new job with more hours.