What Do You Think Others Think Of You?

Depending on who are the said others. My family, for instance, still thinks of me as a lil kiddo, and therefore, everything I say or do that wasn't somewhat inspired by their actions is invalid and/or "childish". Rarely anything I do out of my own initiative gets approved, so I just don't say anything until they come into a position where they gotta approve that: yeah, I pretty much am a individual plant right now, a tree sprouting out of the ground, rather than still being froot :3

Let us see, I think my old friends still see me as a loonie of sort, a cartoon of a person, yet at the same time, the "person" part doesn't get glossed over and I can actually have an opinion and everything without being laughed at as if I was 8 I do have to say, that there is this "friend" I got here in college, that, just, doesn't treat me as a person really, and in fact is treating me as a toy of sort; everything I ever said to him made him laugh, and while he did ask questions, I feel like I am nothing more than a movie character to him. I am now properly distancing myself from that person, I haven't replied to his calls insofar, gotta thank Our Lord for ruining my piece of shit phone to actually give me a excuse. Me thinks, if I isolate myself from him properly, he would forget or not care about me and then we would all go our merry ways. I know I like to unleash jokes and puns all the time, but still, one part of me doesn't want to laugh every second.

I think people enjoy my company, and I don't really mind if they don't, it is their problem. I learned to cope with this in 2nd year of high school, I just realized all of my "haters" were jealous of me and my potential and just didn't want me close. From then on, out of spite, I just remained like a thorn branch, and didn't take any insults to heart, just like I did when I was a kiddo. Guess who managed to get a lot of friends then? That being said, I don't want to be remembered for being a dishonourable prick of sort, so I still stick to the "rules", not being in debt or any of that shit, nah, just, if people wanna think of me, the worst they can think of me is me being some weird dude who drew stuff real' well. There are exceptions to this, but ultimately I don't really care. I just want everyone else to have fun and feel alright, that is, unless they are cardinal assholes, but even those thoughts remain intrusive thoughts and only last for a second or two. After all, the best assured way to have people think well of you if you can make them feel well, nice and/or appreciated when around you

I used to care about what others thought of me, especially during my teenage years, but I am in my mid-20's now I can hardly give a shit what others think.  What I do in life is what I want and I do not need the approval or acceptance from others.  People can think whatever they want about me.  It is not going to stop me from being me. 

Well I assure you, despite our previous rare "altercations" on Doomworld, I have come to find respect for you and your opinions.

Wouldn't be here often otherwise (well that and Tracer being here).

I have always been described as the funny one in every group of friends I have ever had.  Ever since I started losing weight and building muscle though, my confidence has skyrocketed, so now I am also considered to be the leader of most situations.

I am often the one that my friends go to for advice and honest opinions on hard questions...it makes me feel good knowing that a handful of people view me in such high regard.  It's truly an honor.

Beyond reading my posts I doubt many people think much about me at all, I never find myself thinking about other Doomers unless I'm reading a post by them that seems particularly representative of their personality in some way or is directly addressing their traits or some such. I have a hunch the only people who actively dislike me are ones I don't think much of anyway, so it's all good. At the end of the day, there's no one in the community whose opinion means much outside of it, so it's not worth spending much time thinking about.

People should honestly see me as very observant. I take full notice of damn near everything something has to say or show and take all of that into account. May not be the first to point out something, or even anything at all. But I do observe others' actions, and I'll definitely make comparisons.

And after all, isn't that the main purpose of a forum, discussing and exchanging ideas, and maybe even discovering something new?

If you're afraid to voice your opinions for whatever reason you might have, then there's zero point in joining a forum or a community of any kind, it totally defeats its purpose.

It's almost like we are all human, Xeep

My perception of myself is wildly at odds with what people I don't know too well tell me. I think I've said something reasonable, some cunt wants a fight; I've spent two years hating my job before leaving it, I get told I was doing well and it's a shame I had to go. Those close to me IRL (so family and girlfriend) have had the time to really build up a picture and I thinkthey know what I know: That I'm a hateful, bitter man with a lot going on upstairs that's not really doing me much good. However, I can be entertaining, helpful and constructive. Not a bad person, but not a nice one either. A generally agreed consensus amongst both parties is that I over-think things and am plagued with negativity in spite of huge potential. Strangely, in spite of all of that, I think people generally like me anyway. A lot of the internal stuff isn't out there for everybody to see, so whilst my world is ending or whatever, I'm just a guy to them. Might be a smart, unhappy guy, but I'm just a guy. We all hang out with a few of those sometimes - people who are just a guy, making up the numbers, contributing a few anecdotes, jokes or comments for laughs or an extra pair of hands or an opinion to help out. Nobody really minds that and, when they're gone, nobody really misses them either. Some other guy will come along.

As for the internet... Hard to say. Some people remember me as a mapper and would like to see more maps. Other people remember me as a mapper and have never played anything by me. Others still have no idea who I am. I was before their time, or on the other forum, or whatever. I'd like to think I've go the air of somebody who's been about for a while and knows things, but I doubt I'm active enough to keep that image up any more.

I keep the company of very honest people who don't bullshit me when I'm fucking up. That gives me some good qualifiers for whether or not I'm being a decent human to other humans.

The only time it bothers me when people think poorly of me, is when its people I respect or care about personally. Sometimes I think I give away to much of my compassion, and feel very resentful when it is not reciprocated. The more I care about someone, the more I will resent them if they snub me, or treat me poorly. When it comes to people I dislike, I could care less. I just do what ever I need to do to defend myself. But the only way I can truly be hurt is from a loved one. There's nothing worse than being spurned by someone you hold in a high regard.